So here we are, officially in the third trimester & less than three months to meeting our second baby girl. We are closer than ever to the moment we have been counting down to for months, what a crazy feeling! We are over the moon excited, anxious, & of course, just a little bit scared.
My doctor moved my due date up to May 31st from June 2nd, which in reality is only two days, but the change in months made this whole thing seem a hell of a lot closer. As for labor, I definitely want her to keep cooking until then, but am really hoping that when the time comes, she comes on her own. I was induced with Waverly the day after my due date, which for the record, I was ALL for by that point in my pregnancy, but clearly my body wasn’t. I was in labor for 48 hours, most of it with no progress at all (even though I definitely felt it), & after all of that, it almost ended in a c-section. Obviously all is well that ends well, we got a healthy, beautiful baby girl & haven’t looked back since. Yet for round two, I really want that moment when my water breaks (just maybe not while I’m teaching a class) or that I start feeling contractions on my own, hopefully signaling that my body is ready this time. I’ve told my husband time & time again to remind me of this when I am ten months pregnant & will do anything to get her here. 😉 With all that being said, I do know it will happen as it’s supposed to, I love & trust my doctor beyond words, I know she will know what is best for me & the baby. Also, I certainly don’t want to scare anyone from an induction, I have many friends who had great experiences & who would no doubt do it again.
And what about after we are officially a family of four?! I can’t even count the number of people who have told me what a change going from one to two is, that I will look back on my days with just my toddler & laugh about thinking I was busy then. So there’s that, which I’m sure I will find to be true. Mostly though, my thoughts center around the fact that we have been through the baby phase once & (sort of) know what to expect. I know we have lots of sleepless nights headed our way, that there will be moments of endless crying that I can do nothing about, & that I probably won’t shower for days at a time. Yet I also know how quickly that time passes, & to cherish it, especially since something tells me it will go even faster with two little ones at the house.
Without a doubt, my biggest fear is how Waverly will react to this huge life change. She is so excited for her baby sister & talks about her all of the time, but ultimately, girlfriend has no idea what is coming to her. It’s safe to say that she gets a lot of attention around here and has known nothing different for the entire two & a half years of her life. There have been multiple times lately when we have been going through our normal routine that we have all come to know so well, & I’ve realized that no matter how hard I try, it’s going to have to change. Especially since I plan to breastfeed again. It’s such a bittersweet feeling, but I do know that it’s going to be the best thing for everyone, & that soon we will have a new normal that we will come to love just as much.
Above all else, I feel so lucky to be able to grow our family, my husband I have always hoped for a house full of kids & we couldn’t be happier that our dreams are coming true. I also know that we wouldn’t be given this new life if we couldn’t handle it, people do this all of the time, right?! We can’t wait to meet you, baby girl, & love you SO much already! 🙂