But sometimes I think it’s okay (and important) to talk about the difficult parts, too. The moments that you feel exhausted, overwhelmed, and overworked. We all have them, and we all deserve to, without feeling bad about it. And the entire reason I write that is to remind myself of exactly that.
I had a few difficult days in a row a couple weeks ago, pretty much a string of hard moments that usually aren’t that big of a deal but for whatever reason, they were. Waverly was being “three”, Avalon was being mobile & shutting her fingers in drawer after drawer, the house was a mess, and I felt like I couldn’t keep up with anything, work or home related. I found myself counting down the minutes until nap or bedtime and then, feeling the biggest case of mom guilt ever for it. Which of course made everything worse, until finally, I unraveled. I officially lost my patience, raised my voice more then I should have with Waverly, sat Avalon in her crib and just walked away to give myself a little time-out of my own.
As horrible as it felt to hit such a low, I look back now & am so glad I did. Sometimes it takes moments like that to build yourself back up, and while you are at it, to give yourself some grace. I think as moms that we all put way too much pressure on ourselves (I’m at the front of the line), and that at the end of the day, we need to remind ourselves that there is no reason to be ashamed or feel bad for feeling tired or overwhelmed. We are human, and most importantly, we are not alone. For every moment that you feel that way, there’s another mama somewhere feeling exactly the same way, we are all in this together and we will all push through together! 🙂
I’m reminded all of the time of how incredibly resilient children are. I felt so bad for losing my patience with my girls & was positive that they would remember it forever. Of course, Waverly came running in within minutes wanting me to play tea party and dolls with her, telling me how much she loved me & saying “mommy, I missded you”. Avalon was coming in for kisses, her new favorite party trick that seriously melts me every time. I’m not always perfect, but to them, I am. And there is no better feeling than that.
|My Shoes – Bag C/O Seaport Stitches|
Wishing all of the moms out there the happiest Mother’s Day week! You are strong, beautiful rock stars – and I promise you, your little ones are positive that you hung the moon. Even on the days that you definitely don’t feel that way about yourself. Lots of love & hugs from me to you! XO
|Waverly’s Dress (Similar) – Avalon’s Shirt|
10. Beach Trips. This is one of my favorite times of year to go to the beach, since it’s not quite that busy yet or too hot to really enjoy it. The girls & I have ventured there just to explore lately and it is so, so much fun, the perfect activity to just let them be free and tire them out for bedtime.
And a couple photos from yesterday, we pulled out our spring dresses for the sunshine and oh, how happy it makes me! As do they.
With that being said, I don’t want to come off like we are in a perfect world over here. I always want to keep it real, and there are a lot of parts of starting a new job with two little kids (one who is still a baby), plus maintaining a home and being a wife and daughter, granddaughter, sister, friend, aunt … that is just plain hard. Like many of you, most days I feel like I am trying to pull off way too much and sometimes, not any of it very well. It would have been way easier to stay at my comfortable job, the one I was in for eleven years, but I knew there was more for me and I wanted more for myself and for my family. And more than anything, I wanted to show that to my girls, who I hope will do the same one day.
AND just add to the crazy, because why not, since working in this job I have gotten the motivation (and courage!) to officially start my own business! Planning events is something I have always loved to do, it’s the creative & artistic soul in me, and I’m so excited to combine that passion with work. Ashley Brickner Event Planning & Styling is OFFICIAL! I already have some weddings coming up in the next few months, I hope to add more, as well as any other kind of events and just styling in general. I’m so excited about this new chapter, and am thankful to my sweet family who has been so supportive of it. If you are interested in more information, please email me at email@example.com, I will soon be adding a link to my new website to the blog as well!
And because what post is complete without pictures, a few of my babies because they are the reason behind everything I do, I’m SOOOOO thankful I have been able to be home more with them more during this season of life. Miss Avalon Elle stood up for the first time Friday morning, it honestly brought tears to my eyes, I was so proud of her & just so happy I was there to see it, which wouldn’t have been the case if I was still at my teaching position. Also, not for nothing, she has doesn’t done it since which I am 100% ok with. 😉 I love them both with all of my heart, even on the craziest, busiest of days, and hope that they will always know that.
Hope you had the best weekend! XO