I blogged about my experience with Waverly on Julie’s blog here. Long story short, all is well that ends well, but the first few months were very much a struggle. During my pregnancy I had every intention to breastfeed, but was completely naive in thinking that it would come naturally. The pain and overall emotional struggle of the entire experience during those first few weeks were a total shock to me. I certainly don’t want to scare anyone who hasn’t been through it, but I will never forget how unprepared I felt. The issues I had with engorgement, with getting her to latch on, and with keeping up my supply were all things I really hadn’t even heard of and my best advice will always be to research and even take a class during your first pregnancy. With that being said, I am forever grateful for that time I had with her and that I pushed through! We lasted until right before Waverly’s first birthday and I really consider that an accomplishment, especially since I was working full-time.
So this time! For us, breastfeeding is definitely one of those cases where the second time was the charm. Avalon latched on with no problem pretty much at birth & with the exception of some engorgement when my milk came in (which really does hurt like hell!), we really haven’t had issues since. She loves to eat straight from the source, as much as I love her to, she will take a bottle but absolutely prefers to nurse and is so comforted by it. I absolutely love those moments with her, cuddling her, listening to her breathe, and just memorizing every little part of her body. My supply seems to be bigger this time, I am in no way one of those people who makes a lot of milk and has a freezer full of it, but we have quite a few back-up bags compared to living day to day like we did round one. I am sure my confidence & just overall better idea of the situation is what has made the biggest difference on a more positive experience all-around.
Of course I have my days where I feel over it. Being someone else’s sole source of nourishment is so empowering & wonderful, but also can be overwhelming. There are nights that I wish I wasn’t tied to the bed feeding & instead could go read Waverly a book. There are days that it would be SO much easier to let Avalon hold a bottle in the car seat rather than take twenty more minutes to leave because I had to sit down to feed. And with only a few back-up bags and still working every other day, most of the time I would rather stay at home and feed Avalon than ever leave her or have more than a beer while she is awake. It’s just not worth the hassle or the worry, which is totally lame but true. It would definitely be nice to have a little more freedom at times, but I know that is is just a season & that all the good far outweigh all the bad. With all of that being said, can I get a big “amen!” from all you working mamas who would like to join me in a bonfire to burn our pumps?! Because I hate that thing.
I would love to hear your feedback, anything you can relate to or that you have learned from your own experience. Above all else, I do know that each situation is unique, and we are all just trying our best to do what works for our little ones, whatever that may be! I’m so excited to offer all you mamas a fun giveaway to make your life a little bit easier, a $50 credit to Purple Laurel. Whether you are expecting or post-partum, this shop has so many amazing options, including postpartum belly wraps, nursing tops & hands-free pumping bras (I use mine every single day!). Enter the giveaway at the very bottom of this post, good luck! The winner will be announced next Wednesday, Thanksgiving Eve! 🙂
And because this post wasn’t long enough, I realized that I never shared these pictures from Avalon’s newborn shoot, better late than never, right?!
|Pictures By – Brooke Tucker Photography|