Being Brickner : My Motherhood - Mother's Day 2017

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

My Motherhood - Mother's Day 2017

When Waverly Maye was just over one month old, I took her to my school to see my students and co-workers for the first time since officially becoming a mom.  I will never forget, I woke up at four am so I could dry my hair and get myself ready before her next feeding, even though I hardly had any sleep the night before.  I so badly wanted to look like I had this whole mom thing figured out, and to come seamlessly strolling in with my sweet baby girl like I had done it forever.  Of course all of it backfired, three minutes into drying my hair (while it was still dark outside), she had a huge blowout and I spent the rest of the time until we had to leave cleaning her up and keeping her calm.  I did get to school, however I looked anything but put together, with no make-up on and covered in sweat from the August heat & my postpartum hormones.

I share this now, because four years later, I can't help but laugh at that story, maybe even mostly at the fact that I can't believe I thought I would have the "mom thing down" one month into it.  Honestly, some days I still don't -- and that's ok.  One of the many things that motherhood has taught me is humility, and lately I have really been working on giving myself some grace, the grace I so deserve along with all the other mom warriors out there.  Our days are not always perfect.  My four-year old mini me tests me daily and I find myself googling "how to raise the strong-willed child" more than once a week.  My almost two-year old currently doesn't like naps or any foods that don't have sugar in them.  We don't co-sleep and the thought of it actually scares me, by the time bedtime hits I need my space.  Motherhood is messy, it can be so freaking intimidating, exhausting, and scary.

Yet with all of that, it is (and no doubt will forever be) the greatest joy I have ever known.  I always knew I wanted to be a mother, but nothing could have prepared me for how happy it would make me or for the unconditional love I would have for my girls.  How did I get so lucky to be at the front row, watching every magical and frustrating moment of their little lives?!  How are they mine?  They are everything, two little people who fill my heart to the brim and who gave me the best role I've ever had.

Sharing some pictures from Mother's Day weekend, it was such a good one with lots of relaxing and quality time with my family, and even a little alone time for a Target trip and pedicure!!!


Hope all the mamas you had the most wonderful Mother's Day!!!!  Of course I have to send the HAPPIEST Mother's Day to my own mama, the one who showed me what this thing is all about.
XO

4 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing your story, in a world of picture perfect it's nice to hear the real life. You've always been so genuine and real, which is why I love reading your blog. Love those pictures and a strong willed child, yup that was me :)!

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  2. This. All of this. Love it! You three are precious and these photos are adorable. Waverly's freckles that sweep across her nose and cheeks just kill me! I hope you had the most incredible Mother's day, friend.

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  3. Love you girlfriend!! Couldn't have said it better! All of it! Loved the pictures and the three of you. So glad you had such a wonderful weekend!!

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  4. AMEN!! Five years into this gig and I'm still like, "WHAT AM I DOING?" most of the time.
    Loving the photos of you and those beautiful ladies!!

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