Being Brickner : The Inevitable

Saturday, October 13, 2012

The Inevitable

As much as I've tried to "forget" the reality of what will come bright & early on Monday morning ... It's time to face the end of my maternity leave and start to my 2012 school year. It has been four months since I had to set my alarm clock, pack my lunch, or lay out my outfit for the next day.  I haven't heard the calls for "Mrs. Brickner," the sound of the school bell, or had a need to take attendance.  This departure from school and my normal routine has certainly been welcomed, and replaced with some major life-changes.  Since June, I have desperately awaited the end of my pregnancy, welcomed my beautiful daughter, and transitioned into motherhood.  It has been eventful, to say the least, and with its craziness ... The thought of returning to work hasn't been at the forefront of my mind.

But it's here.  The thought of leaving our Waverly Maye for seven hours a day, Monday - Friday, is almost unbearable.  I will miss that sweet face so much that I am not sure how I will get in the car, and the thought of not being there for each feeding, smile, and possible milestone really does bring tears to my eyes. But it is inevitable, and therefore, I must look at the positives. She will be in good hands, I can come home to her by three each day, and I have the summer to look forward to.  And the truth is, I do love my job and look forward to seeing the kids and to having a reason to dry my hair & put on make-up again. 

So ... I am prepared for a tough morning, first day, and week back (and I know I won't be the first to experience this, as there is a section of cards dedicated for moms first day back to work at Target, a search on google, and several books on the subject).  But I know it will get easier, and eventually, will be to best scenario for both of us.  And no matter what, we have the summer.  

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